My biggest homeschooling mistake thus far? This is a tough one. We have only been doing this for about 10 months. We pulled Cody out of 6th grade during Christmas break of last year and Chris just decided that he didn’t want to go to school for 2nd grade. Hmmm…answers like
- “We should have started sooner”
- “Not having faith in myself”
- “Not wanting to give up my time”
- “Doubting my abilities”
all pop into my mind. We had thought about homeschooling when Cody was still in day care. The thought of teaching math terrified me (of course that is my weakness!). So, the answer was a resounding NO!
It takes being pushed and pushed and pushed to the point of surrender. It was at this point where I was able to objectively look at the situation in front of me. What we were doing was not working. What is the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results. How many ways can you go to an administrator and ask for help and not get resolution? How many times can you get labeled as “those parents” because you question and question and push for answers and not get them? It compounds. It builds up and it gets to the point where you find yourself throwing your hands up in the air and asking your husband if he can teach math.
Actually, it’s come to me now. My biggest homeschooling mistake was not taking my kids misery seriously while he was in public school. My biggest homeschooling mistake was letting my child suffer. It’s all of the above reasons. It’s beating myself up over not having faith in myself, doubting myself, not pulling him out earlier or knowing Algebra I. The payoff of homeschooling though, those outweigh all the doubt and concern and fear. Had I had more faith in my ability as a mother to teach my child, foster a lasting and loving relationship, and find help where I lacked (math) I don’t think he ever would have entered school. It’s amazing how it was my fear that limited our homeschooling experience. In my humanness I will fail. Today, I choose not to beat myself up over that.